~ Graduation... eventually ~

I don't get the graduation gown. Why a gown? I don't get it. It's so baggy, so weird. Why a gown? Add to that, it costs a ton for renting alone! (I'm slightly exaggerating)

But seriously, why a gown? I still don't get it. I can probably wiki it and find out in about 10 minutes, but being lazy and on principle, I sometimes choose to not wiki or google stuff... until I give up and google it anyway, but that's besides the point. Haha.

Anyway, the gown is just weird to me. I don't get why we have to wear that gown just to graduate.

Actually, if it were up to me, I would actually just forget about the event altogether. Haha. I mean I want the degree, attending the ceremony is not going to change that at all anyway, so why go? But anyway, everyone around me saying should go, once in a lifetime thing, blah blah blah...

I will be going, but let's just say under slight protest. (Very very slight... haha...)

University wasn't exactly what I hoped it was though. Now that I think about it, I think it suffered from exactly the same thing as when I have high expectations of a movie. The experience just wasn't as great as what you imagine it to be. You know, you go, you make unforgettable friends, you learn many new things, you find a nice girl who you will settle down with for the rest of your life, you learn the tools you need to get you through the rest of your life, etc. etc. etc.

Let me tell you, I probably did not get any of those. ^^

Let's just go down memory lane shall we?

First year: I got fined like a few weeks into the semester for doing immoral stuff. Everyone else was doing it, and they bloody fined me. It was infuriating. Additionally that is $200 I will never see again. (The immoral stuff is related to Las Vegas btw)

Second year: I got rejected by basically each and every club I joined. Yeah... it was that awesome...

Third and fourth years: I decided to go low and stick with the people I know. But then they all ran off and did different things. Sooo... I was basically alone most of the time.

So what can I say about my University life? It sucked! Yeah. I'm telling you that now. It basically sucked. It was nothing I imagined it to be, and it almost always kicked me in the ass every chance it got.

Good things did happen though, and I appreciate those events and people. But on the whole, I would say it was a bust.

Actually, I would go back so far as to say my life has been on a downward spiral since... oh... 6 years ago? Things just keep getting worse and worse. It's amazing how much happier and carefree I was then. I never had to think that I was losing people I thought were important to me, I never even imagined that I would be thinking those things now, but there you are.

I'm not saying that given a second chance, I would choose differently, knowing myself at this moment now, and knowing how I have gotten here from there, I'm actually quite 100% sure that I would probably have made the same choices that got me here. What I am saying in this post is that I should've known what I was then and what I could do to make this situation slightly better. At the very least, I wish I would know then that I can keep my friends better than I am now.

Anyway, this is all just ranting for ranting's sake. It's not near my graduation date yet anyway. One thing I can say is that I do actually seem to understand and accept who I am more now anyway. At the very least, these past few years have helped me do that.

*Haihz*

Anyway, if anyone reading this is bummed out by my description of Uni life, please do note that I am probably a special case that did not truly enjoy Uni life. I know of people who has had so much fun they flunked classes so that they could stay longer, that's how dedicated fun loving people they are. Uni life is still probably something you kids out there should try. Who knows, you might even enjoy it. XD