~ Terrified ~

I'm so terrified.
I need this to go well, but I'm not sure how to make sure it goes well.
I'm hoping that it'll go well.

~.~

~ Annoyances ~

Many things annoy me these days. It seems stupid to be annoyed by so many things, but they just do.

~ Destiny ~

(Nerd joke ~.~)

Fact is I dunno what I'm doing. What am I doing? I'm trying to obtain a job in a field which I don't particularly want to be in. I'm trying to start off in a field I want to be in but I keep getting pushed back because I look around and I see so many other people out there are so much better than me.

So it comes back to I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know what I want to do and I don't really wanna do anything.

Which is a problem when you're buying stuff left, right and center but have no means of actually paying for them yourself.

What do I do? What-do-I-do?

~ Inspiration ~

I suffer from bouts of inspiration.
However, they disappear just as suddenly as they appear.
One minute I'm telling myself I can do this, I can make this big, huge, enormous.
Next minute I'm telling myself that it's impossible, I can't do this, it'll be worthless.

Point to note is that I think the point is that I should just do something.

I'm getting Sucker Punch's OST. I think it'll be useful.

Oh, and congrats Zack Snyder, you made a movie I didn't hate.

Sucker Punch speaks to me on many levels. I may or may not get into more detail later, but the main point of it is that it involves a lot of fantasizing, and I like fantasizing. =)