~ Faking it ~

I can tell you with almost 90% certainty that I have no idea what I'm doing most of the time.

I wish I could put it into words and pour it out to a good friend of mine for advice. Then I realize that for one, I do not know what my problem is. And two, I have no friends that I want to talk to this about.

What is the problem? I seriously don't know. It's like there's something missing that I can't put into words. I used to think that it was something like I was lonely and a girlfriend or something would solve that. But now I'm pretty sure it's not. The fundamental fault lies within me. And having someone else involved just creates more messes than it will fix.

It's been a while since I blogged, and I have been trying to stay away from emo-ish posts like these. But it is when I am in this state that I have to resort to putting into words when my mind can't handle the jumble anymore.